Today I thought about the time when my relationship with Angie was nearing the end, and I returned to my old summer camp in search of solace. I spent a week at my old summer camp, wandering around remembering the ghosts of what once was, and yet it now feels like a lifetime ago in some forgotten dream.
Nostalgia is the overwhelming desire to return to the way things used to be, yet refusing to acknowledge the fact that things will never be the same as they were, and our memories are often jaded.
Life is beautiful it seems, when I am lost in my own reverie, yet I often feel as if I am alone like those lost at sea and never found.
Something lost though nothing is gained. I remember the first girl I ever loved, whom I met at camp, and although I practically devoted my entire existence to my writing at the time, I whispered to her words of love in shades of grey.
Music has always been a major part of my life, and today I came across my breakup playlist from the last time I stayed at camp.
- Suit And Jacket by Judah & the Lion
- Byegone by Volcano Choir
- 5 AM by Amber Run
- Be OK by Too Far Moon
- Wolves by Phosphorescent
- Death Dream by Frightened Rabbit
- Moonlight by Susan Enan
- Riverwide by Sheryl Crow
- All Things All At Once by Tired Pony
- Time After Time by Cyndi Lauper
- Wasting My Young Years by London Grammar
December 16, 2022