American Writer, Photographer, and Website Designer. Former career Fire and EMS Lieutenant. She/Her/Lesbian.

Category: Diary

  • Almost 4 AM


    April 9, 2022 This morning I rolled over, I tossed and turned, and couldn’t get back to sleep. It was almost 4 AM, and my mind was racing, filled with the thoughts of old days gone by, plans for the future, and everything in between. I woke up to the sound of raindrops against my…

  • Meeting Mitch In New York City


    March 16, 2022 Today I took a trip to New York City to show Apartment 2 of my childhood home to a new tenant, [name withheld]. She is a wonderful woman, an actress from Holland, who is a friend to [name withheld] who have rented an upstairs apartment from me for many years. She immediately…

  • Fame Itself Is A Cancer And Ego Its Seed

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    No matter what I do, it seems that it seldom works out. On the rare occasion when it does, my triumph and success results in the jealousy of others who then seek to undermine and destroy that which I have accomplished. When I was a child, I was told that being different in some ways…

  • Only The Moon Understands The Beauty Of Love

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    The last remaining hours of the year slowly ticked by as I watched the New Years Eve special on television, live from my home town of New York City. It seems that the winter, cold and bitter, and drearily silent, gives reason for one to think about the year, as once again one starts to…

  • There Is A Ceiling In The Darkness

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    Last night I was plagued by nightmares in my sleep; recurring dreams in which I was dying through a series of tragic events. I spent the duration of yesterday thinking about my 22 year fire department career. Last night I as I lay awake, I realized that there is a ceiling in the darkness, and…

  • I Can Leave Behind A Heart

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    The older I get, the more it seems that I lose. I have lost people near a dear, my possessions, and arguably, my faith. All I ever wanted my entire life was to feel comfortable in my own skin. To belong. To live authentically. To be free. I put the entire essence of my being…

  • Summoned To The Far Reaches Of My Mind


    Today I was summoned to the far reaches of my mind as I pondered all morning about what I was going to write, as the snow fell gently only to be carried away by a mocking easterly wind. I spent the last few days going through my old notebooks, in a futile attempt to gain…

  • Second-Guessing


    February 4, 2009 Today I’m second-guessing the plans I made in regards to my book. I’m still going to write it, of course even if my approach leads me in a different direction. To write a book one has to open up their heart and soul if they want to make it worth reading. Writing…

  • My Moleskine Notebook


    November 3, 2008 My dear friend of 10+ years talked to me on my Skype for an hour and 45 minutes. “G” is an openly gay and borderline effeminate college best friend of mine who despite his busy schedule, always finds time to keep in touch. Not only has he enjoyed huge success in recent…

  • I Am A Writer!


    February 2, 2009 I consider myself a writer because I love to create written documentation of any kind. The best decision I ever made to further my career in writing was to start a blog.  Blogs are perfect for creating, sharing, and archiving documentation of all kinds.  A problem I faced recently was a crashed…